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Time for another random text post! Yay! Or Boo! Idk. But, here’s my life atm.
I don’t think things with Brandon worked out. I don’t know that for a fact. But, I basically never heard from him again. I mean, he texted me like once, but it was kind of excuses about why it wouldn’t work out. I don’t think we ever broke up technically. I mean, I tried. But hell, I couldn’t even reach him to do that. Like if he could of taken 2 min to text me, or make a 1 min phone call, things would be a lot different. But, yeah, he didn’t, so I don’t think that is a thing anymore. Oh, well, it wasn’t really realistic anyway with his military base being like 12 hours away and him not being allowed to leave it. So, whatever.
Um, I’ve recently started the whole online dating crap again. Been on a few more dates, I guess. Had a few awkward experiences with douche bags.
#1 awkward experience was this guy who seemed totally nice and awesome. We talked online for awhile. Then he asked for my number and he called me. We talked on the phone probably for like 5 or 6 hours and joked around and had a great time. I, of course, told him I was bipolar and all the warning labels I come with. And he was totally fine with it. He was like, yeah I know people like that, its cool. And he asked me out on a date and everything and we made plans.
Then the following morning at 6:30 I get a text that, I’m not what he’s looking for right now and all sorts of crazy stuff, basically calling me out for being bipolar and not being good enough to date him.
It was pretty shitty. Really upsetting actually. Being called a shitty person by someone who doesn’t even really know you, but you gave all this personal information in hope of being loved or whatever bullshit. Yeah, it was a really shitty feeling. Plus you already had plans you were looking forward to as a bonus slap in the face.
Anyways, all that happened. That was a few days ago.
In other, newer, more exciting news, I actually went on a date tonight.
Which I think went really really well.
Kind of bizarre. I’m learning that as I get older, all of these weird made-up dating rules I have/had don’t really make a lot of sense.
For starters I have never, and have said I would never date someone from my own state. Well, he is. But he doesn’t act like it. For the most part. There’s a couple of things that were kind of cringeworthy, but none of it was his fault, or offensive, or anything. So, I have no reason to hold anything against him. Some of the stuff he does is just typically southern. But so is a lot of the stuff I do. I mean, we were born and raised here. Who can hold that against someone, right? lol.
Secondly, he is super christian. And I am super atheist. But he didn’t seem to care I was atheist. And as long as he doesn’t try to convert me, or preach to me. I do not care what his religion is either. And he seemed super chill about it. He seemed like actually what christians are supposed to be. Which was awesome. Kudos for that. So even though, I would normally have that as a bad thing on my list, no problems there. lol.
Um…. he does have some things about animals that super bother me. To me, animals are part of the family. Like we pay more for our dog’s healthcare than we do ours, simply because we do not have insurance for our dog’s, and she gets top of the line treatment, such as all the surgeries she needs, and regular teeth cleaning, etc. He wasn’t raised quite the same way. He offended me a few times with animal brutality stories of hunting and stuff, as well as his attitude towards pets and animals. But he apologized profusely. And I think he felt pretty terrible that I called him out on it at all during a first date.
As far as everything else goes with this boy, I can’t see a single thing wrong with him. He’s very cute. He has impeccable manners. And when I say manners, I mean like professional at manners. I felt awkwardly rude because he was like walking behind me, and standing until i sat down, and like old school, old school manners. Super super sweet. Very funny. Still has a rebellious side with a motorcycle and a camaro.
I’d say I’m genuinely impressed. He has already asked me out on a second date. So very very impressed.
Also in other news, I’ve made some new friends. HOOORAY! I actually got out of the house the other day just to go hang out with people. Which was super super super awesome. And I had an uncanny amount of things in common with these people. So that’s awesome too. Super stoked about new friends.
So I would say things are looking up. But I’m not going to be too too optimistic. Because every time I post one of these, “Things are looking up” posts on here, everything will inevitably crash and burn the next day. So I’m just going to say, “things are neutral”. Still at home 90% of the time, but life isn’t like a living hell anymore. So yay!
Hey guys, its been over a month since I’ve updated. I have a lot of exciting news to share.
So back, on the week that I updated last, I went to visit Brandon that weekend. It was kind of a surprise.
On Mon, Tues, and Weds, of that week Brandon and I talked about me coming to visit him that weekend. We made some “plans.” None of which were set in stone or had reservations or anything. And then after Wednesday I didn’t hear anything from Brandon. I had already fought rounds with my parents about…. well, leaving the state and driving like 400 miles away to meet a stranger on the internet. My mom was thoroughly convinced that I was driving to meet a group of gang-rapists and kept telling me all the different ways I could die.
My father, being the peace keeper, booked two hotel rooms far apart from each other. And was just like, hey I’m going to drive down there with you and then as soon as we get there, I’ll disappear. Rent my own car, everything. But if anything goes wrong, you can text me and I can come bail you out rather than being so far away. So that was the compromise we made.
By Wednesday, my dad already had two hotel rooms booked, as well as a car rented, etc. And Brandon was no where to be heard from. I texted him Thursday and Friday.
We left at about 3 pm on Friday and showed up at 4 in the morning on Saturday. Google maps said the drive would take 7 hours. They lied, it took over 12. Still no word from Brandon. I texted him, left a voicemail, and a message on his okcupid, that I was currently in his town, atm. However, I figured he was in the field and had no technology available whatsoever, so my luck would just have to depend on when he got back to the barracks.
On Saturday morning at about…idk really fucking early, I heard from him. I think he got back around 6 and wanted to meet at McDonald’s at like 8. I convinced him to let me sleep until 10:30, but didn’t get dressed out of the hotel and figure out how to get onto the military base until about 1:30 or so.
Anyways, finally I picked him up and it was apparent as we sat in the parking lot and stared at each other, that neither of us had thought about what was going to happen at this point. We were so occupied anticipating meeting one another. I didn’t know the area. And he had no idea I was coming and had made no date plans or anything. We really didn’t know what to do.
We eventually agreed to getting his laptop to watch netflix back at the hotel and stopping by the liquor store and getting some eggnog.
Also I gave him his Christmas Gifts that I had got. I was super excited about this! I got him a bunch of Iron Man stuff. I got him an Iron Man wallet, Iron Man original comics plastic cup thingy, Marvel original comic boxers, and an Iron Patriot bobble head collectible figure thingy.
He seemed super stoked about my gifts. Of course he hadn’t gotten me anything yet because I literally got him as soon as he came back off the field. I don’t think he even had time to eat, sleep, shower, shave or anything.
Anyways….we got back to the hotel and it became apparent pretty quickly how attracted we were to each other. As soon as we had both walked through the door he swept me in his arms and began kissing me.
He asked me out pretty immediately. And I was very ecstatic.
Things became R rated, but in a very comedic sort of way. Every time you have sex with someone for the first time, it never seems to work. Or at least that has been my experience. I have never had a good, first time, sexual experience with someone. Something awkward and embarrassing always happens. I can literally think of all the first times I have had with ex boyfriends, and I don’t think one of them was particularly “successful.”
Anyways, we ended up mainly just cuddling and watching bad horror movies on Netflix till I had to take him back to the base at 8:30 pm. And then my dad and I started the long drive back, getting back home just before the sun came up.
Lately, I haven’t heard much from Brandon at all. I know he is in California visiting his family for Christmas. We texted back and fourth a couple of times on Christmas day, but I haven’t heard from him in about 4 or 5 days now.
I miss him bunches. He hasn’t called me at all really since I went to visit him and we have only texted a few times. I think things will get here once its past the first week or so of January and he is back on the base and things aren’t so hectic. I expect to hear from him more. And visit him more too. At least that’s what I’m hoping.
Other than that, Christmas has been pretty uneventful. I’ve been pretty depressed and gone back to sleeping all day pretty much and living in sweat pants and not really going anywhere. I can’t really imagine myself leaving the house anymore and having any type of life.
Idk. I stay up at night mainly and talk to people online. My dog, Clover, keeps me company.
idk man, imagine showing Arthur Weasley a gif for the first time. At first of course he’d just think it was a normal wizard photograph, but then you’d explain that muggles made it and his heart would just explode with joy over these muggles making such amazing shit even though they have no magic at all. How amazing. How inventive.
Maybe whenever you’re feeling bad about yourself imagine how much Arthur Weasley would enjoy meeting you.
when you feel your clothes fresh out of the oven
OKAY SO I REALIZED I USED OVEN INSTEAD OF DISHWASHER BUT I KINDA FORGOT WHAT IT WAS CALLED AND USED THE NEXT BEST GUESS I COULD THINK OF
It’s called a washing machine
i think its a dryer like who would be feeling wet ass clothes
this post is a fucking train wreck
it takes me like 3 days to wake up in the morning
oh my god
fucking fandom references
WHAT FANDOM? THE JESUS FANDOM?
THEY PREFER THE TERM CHRISTIANITY
This is the post that killed me
This is the post that killed him.
That’s whit at its finest.
love how bus drivers give each other that little wave or nod when their buses pass like they’re in a secret bus driver club who are actually on a way more important mission than what seems, they’re actually out preventing public mayhem and evil villains on fake nuclear buses.
my dad’s a bus driver and i translated your text post to him and then he started laughing, looked me dead in the eye and said “who said we were preventing evil”